She had no idea about Tom; but she got the condensed version over Red Robin burgers.
On my way to lunch I remembered I have a hair appt tomorrow and my stepDad has cardiac rehab so I called him. Turns out he has a 2pm appt with a business associate.
I said "Great! Let's have lunch" and he asked what's up so I said "maybe I just need some daddy time".
We'll figure out a place in the morning.
On my way back from lunch I was reflecting on my situation.................
and I found myself needing my Papa.
The only stable man in my 42 years (other than stepDad for 29).
I just needed to be with him again, out in the yard, looking out at the property, his arm around my shoulder as was the norm.
Then I get back to the office wondering why he came to mind, other than the obvious.
Tomorrow he's been gone from us 8 years.
Tears are trying to flow, but I'm holding back. Soon I will cry if not for the lonliness of needing him, from the frustration of my world.
He would have been 81 his next birthday (LJ's birthday too) in 2000; 89 this year. Wow. Time has flown.
13 comments:
missing my dad also he'll be gone 13 years in sept.
hugz!
((((((((((((((((((((((( SHaron)))))))))))))))))))))))) We always need our dad..or Papa's, I'm sorry your missing him so.
Am I a blonde bimbo??? HA HAHAHAHAHAHAH
No wonder you luv me so much then!
Hugs
Ang
Sending you a hug!
Missie
<<<Hugs!!>>>
L :)
I am so glad you went out to lunch with your GF! Sounds like you need some more you time and less hubby stress time lol! You will do what is right for you and your daughter when you are ready. Your amazing hun and the answers will come to you ;)
Hugs, Robyn
I'm glad your friend was there for you and your Step-daddy. We all need that sort of thing. Red Robin??! I'm jealous! I love the Whiskey River BBQ Burger!!!!
Traci
(((((((((((((((((TPIEZ4ME)))))))))))))))Its good to have your friend and family there for you.
I want to cry along with you. I feel so badly for you and what you have been going through. Take care blondie.
Phil
I glad you were able to get out and have lunch with your friend. That's good for the soul. And have a nice time with your dad!! Love, Shelly
I know how you feel. Missing my Dad too. It sucks.
Hope you have a good lunch out.
hugs,
Ellen
Those are the kind of memories that warm the heart and somehow ease some of the pain. Happy to hear you had a chance to be with friends. Take care and enjoy your weekend,
Katie
wow just today I needed to call my mom she's been gone since 99. It's hard I know, they always knew exactly what to say. rose
IF ONLY i could travel thru the PC to you...i want you to feel happy and i am so upset with the current circumstances....his bday was 5/26?
I hope lunch went well...i am days behind with this sickness i have. I am praying for you, sweetness.
love, lisa
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