This is an all too familiar scenario.......up at this time of the morning. Wondering if Mr Man snuck in the house...well after a quick scan of all rooms and outside, no such luck. I know what he's doing. The bank account is getting worse and will as time goes on due to overdraft fees etc. Why do they allow that to happen? All I can say is once he's home, the ATM card will once again become mine. Available Balance: -$154.00
I wake up frequently when he fails to come home, as one would imagine. This night was no different. About 4:14am I am awake, and it hits me ---- he was wearing his jewelry, gold rope with cross pendant, heavy bracelet and watch. Now normally he won't part with these, let's hope that remains true.
However, I do have visions of the truck, windows broken, portable dvd player gone. It would not be the first time. It makes me extremely mad.
I used to stay up all night.......crying, looking out the window each time I heard a car coming, hoping. Then I would get angry, and not just angry, I mean REDNECK MAD. I don't like me like that. I say and do things that are very unbecoming of a Southern Belle. Although right now visions of Scarlet are running across my mind.
Well when I get ready to leave & take Miss T to my Mom's (school's out) he will probably have arrived home and be asleep in the truck in the yard...another familiar trend. (He has a urologist appt at 10:30am - I doubt he makes it.) OR.....he will wait till I'm gone before he gets here, then call me to tell me he's home and "I'm sorry" (of course). He will know by then that all hell is about to split open and consume his life.
He has come so far...........why backslide now? Why risk going to jail? Impounded vehicle? (again - lost the caddy 2 yrs ago) The truck is about 6 months from being paid off..........I love that truck. (Grey '02 GMC 4dr 4x4 w/lid)
Anyone wanna take bets as to how close I've come to calling this episode?
Been here done this before.......got the Tshirt, worn it out and replaced it many times.
It makes me sad that he allows this to keep a hold on him.
I've taken a benedryl and will head back to bed now.........thanks for letting me get this out. Love to all! Sharon