Thursday, December 27, 2007

Ahhhh Florida

It's very different this trip.....I'm not "happy" or in the mood to "shop".  Tom almost made himself sick to his stomach on the way down.  Worried.

He hasn't told his Dad yet, but both his brother and his sister noticed he was "acting very quiet". 

Actually scared is more like it.

Guess he will tell him before we leave here.  I'm sure his Dad has noticed the iceberg affect going on.

I'm staying out of the way.

Bethe, I drove down to Palm Harbor and I'm pretty sure I was basically in your front yard.

Miss T and I drove into Tarpon Springs, rode down the road of Sponges.  Seems Tarpon is "famous" for those loofa type sponges.

Shelly, I wanted to go to Jilly's.....but I feel obligated to hang here at the house at night. 

Maybe tomorrow I'll head over to Hudson Beach....Sam's to be exact.  And of course I have to hit a couple of Beall's Outlets and such.

It's 81 degrees and beautiful.  We drove in rain through most of SC and into GA.  I drove ALL night because Tom refused to do any sleeping.......grrrrrrrrrr.

And when he did drive (all of 5 miles) he nodded off and ran off the road a bit and of course I screamed "get off the road now".  Lovely.  I drove on into Dad's.  Took a short nap.

Tonight I feasted on BIL's Lasagne....I feasted a bit too much.  Miss T helped Grandpa make Canolli's.  We'll be having them soon with coffee once the pasta settles some.

Tom tries to get close to me, but I'm not receptive.  I'm just so hurt right now that he did what he did.  Of all times too!!

I've taken just a few pictures...not as many as normal.  Guess I'm just not in the mood.

Thank you all for your wonderful words of encouragement and love.  It helps to know that I'm not crazy by expecting some kind of "normal". 

Don't get me wrong.....he's not bad all the time or each and every weekend.  It comes outta the blue sometimes.  But I should have seen this one coming in.  But I also thought I was having confidence in the season too....who'da thunk he'd mess up at Christmas time.  Too many bad memories of when my Dad did that stuff to us kids.

Love you all!!!!

I'm off for some dessert.



mpnaz58 said...

What if he doesn't tell dad?  What if he just leaves things as is, and you guys return home?  I know it is hard for let your guard down, and wham!  I hope this is a lesson he learns well.  Salvage your weekend, girlie...
xoxo ~Myra

robinngabster said...

It's a little chilly over here in Tampa tonight.  Try and enjoy your visit!

randlprysock said...

I hope that you have a fantastic time while you are there!!  The shopping is truly wonderful in Florida.  If you are going to the Beall's outlets we found so many great deals.  I just love shopping in Florida.  If I were to go again right now that is what would be on the top of my list!  Sorry to hear what you are going through with Tom.  I know how hard it is sometimes with men.  Gosh, my husband can make me madder than a hornet quicker than anyone I know, except maybe my firstborn son.  Maybe it's a man thing.  Hugs,

sharonna1955 said...

21years with an acoholic he messed up every year at the holidays God Bless you and rememeber only you know how much of that you can take ... Wishing you a better new year then you have had may you find happiness again and be more prosperous for you ......Sue

xxroxymamaxx said...

Dang.  I'm sorry you are had to go through what you did with Tom.  Sheez.  I'm so glad and happy that you came to Fl though.  I will see you on Saturday! I just cannot wait.  Love ya, Shelly

imgr8phil said...

I hope you have a decent time there.  Try to for you and Miss T.  Make something  good out of this trip.  Take care.


emabecmar said...

there is absolutely nothing wrong in wanting some normal. keep giving him the cold shoulder and if someone notices and asks tell them to go ask tom. and you and your beautiful lil girl try and have the best time anyways. (((((((hugs)))))

cuteallison1980 said...

I hope you will feel better tomorrow and have an enjoyable trip.  Keep a positive attitude, and smile on your face especially for Miss T, and love in your heart and happiness will never be far from you. : )


jckfrstross said...

i hope you enjoy the trip:) you have rain we have snow and its 16 degrees and it will get colder


eml625 said...

I hope you can have a good time.
He needs to accept the fact that he needs help....and quickly.
God Bless !


gaboatman said...

I hope you enjoy the rest of your trip.  Other than the drive down, it sounds like you are having a good time.  I love that part of Florida!  Have fun and return safely.

garnett109 said...

Sharon i'm not sticking up for Tom on this but My self I have a hard time during the holidays, I get so damn depressed and want to be left alone.

chat2missie said...

Tom should be scared!  I do hope you start to enjoy your time a little more.  Leave Tom at the house with his dad, and go have a great time!  You and Miss T deserve it!

deshelestraci said...

I haven't been around a bunch lately.  I skimmed the last couple of weeks though.  I hope you and Miss T have fun and leave Tom with his dad.

lifes2odd said...

I don't know what to say Sharon. I'm sorry he has messed up your trip. I am still really looking forward to meeting you and Miss T on Saturday.
Hugs, Martha

bobbysgirl8584 said...

try to enjoy this trip and this time with you daughter. try not to let him ruin this time for you.

ljjellybean71 said...

Florida.. ahhhhhhhhh,  sounds nice.   I sincerely hope you had a nice Christmas and a happy new year coming up.    

queeniemart said...

i love you too and have prayed for YOU to have some PEACE in your heart while you are on vacation......will you see Shelly? Be safe and take it one day at a time.
XO lj

cacklinrosie101 said...

Sharon, enjoy yourself and try to relax.  Soak up the sun and let Tom fend for himself.  No, you should not have seen it coming.  You shouldn't have to.  Tom's a big boy.  You are not his mother or babysitter.  You two should be partners.  Please keep wishing for normal.  What you have isn't.  LJ is right...Tom is selfish, and you and Miss T deserve far better.  Love you, Chris

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU)))))))))))))I am sorry things dont loog good right now.But I do hope your having some fun.

peytonswater said...

I've sat here and read through your journals, I don't know how I ever lost track of your journal, I just can't recall why. I know when I went on vacation I turned off my alerts and since then, they all didn't seem to work when I turned them back on, strange. But with a new name I hope things will work for me at this site and now I know I will never mess with my alerts. I had a great time last night!!!

springangel235 said...

I hope by now the vacation is going a little better than when this entry was deserve a good time...and relaxation...I hope it happens...come back rested...and know we all care...hugs and love,