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And it's NOON!
I know this isn't as cold as yesterday's Green Bay / NY game but geeeesh!
I'm a summer girl. I want and need my warmth!
Happy MLK Day to those of you sitting at home with the day off. Me? I'm at work, but you can't tell it eh?
I would have LOVED to stay home today. There is lots to do there. Managed to get the tree in its box and back in the closet. Still, that one room needs my attention in the worst way. It's where everything ends up. Craft tools, my serger and sewing machine, an extra table and computer. Boxes of who knows what. Gotta do an early Spring Cleaning in here!!
I spent 10 hrs Friday and 7 hrs Saturday working on Dance Costumes. We still have a long way to go yet. Rhinestones; bows on barrettes; slip stitching way too low bodices.
Why did I volunteer for this? I'm still asking myself that one! I must be nutz!
Dress rehearsal is February 2nd that's why. And even then there will be straps and skirts pinned for adjustments.
February 15th is the first Dance Competition. We have to be ready!
Tom and I have been very distant for quite some time. No "touchie feelie", no emotion (except when he's bad), just existing together. We talked briefly Saturday morning about whether or not we were "happy" and I flat said that NO I wasn't. I can't be. I can't get to that plateau without waiting to go over the hill in a downward spiral.
I was in an even mood when he wasn't home Thursday night. Because I'm in a leveled off mood with him. If I were estatically happy I would have been crushed as in the past.
I cannot change him and I cannot babysit him. He even said to me "well if you had a feeling that I was gonna....." and I said "I can not babysit you! You have to take control of your self!"
We sat and talked for quite a while. It's the same conversation. I explained that the reason I made the comment on Thurs "I can smell" that he'd had a drink is because #1 I can smell it and #2 everyone else can too #3 and they would question why he was drinking and bringing Miss T to dance and #4 if he were stopped by a cop...........well, I'm not interested in losing my daughter because he can't control himself.
I mean, come on......why have a beer with lunch KNOWING you have a duty to drive my daughter to a function? What's wrong with a soda, tea or water? Use your brain man!! That's all!
Then he's mad cause Miss T's mad at him, so that gives him an excuse to go out and buy drugs.
I told him I'm already looking forward to the plans I may have to be making very soon. i.e. living arrangements.
He needs to decide real quick like what he wants and needs to do to save his family.