Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Mixed Feelings

Tom comes home today....2:30pm.

He called last night.....says he's coming home with a new attitude and he's going over his list.

List?

Says I have questions to answer.

I say HE has questions to answer....or rather, what changes is he willing to make.

I wonder if he filled out the sheets in his paper notebook where I made headings?  Things like what he likes/dislikes about himself etc....

Yes, I know that I'm not perfect, but I'm pretty darn close ROFLMAO!!!  I harp on him when he's had a drink - I wouldn't if it didn't affect him so and maybe if he'd be quiet when necessary.

Why does it make me react that way? 

Because he gets weird?  Unrational.  Loud.  Obnoxious.  I'll video tape the next incident and replay it for him to show him how stupid he acts.

Ground rules?

He's 56......you wouldn't think we'd need them.

He is one that craves a pat on the back, a "thank you", or "good job" often.  Guess I take for granted that the things he does is normal and shouldn't have to be "rewarded" - but I know it is nice to hear.

Especially when dinner is cooked when I get home (rare).

Anyway, mixed feelings.

It's been quiet......no stress other than getting up and getting the girlie to school then figuring out a way to get her home then to school.  Since I work so far away it's not feasible to run home.  It's been nice having Mom pick her up and meet me 1/2 way when I needed it.

Sleeping alone?  Used to bother me.  Actually I hate sleeping alone.  But this time, it's been cake.

He asked if I had missed him a little.....I said "yeah, a little".

It's been quiet..........oh so quiet.

16 comments:

deshelestraci said...

What happened to that one way ticket?  JMHO but it is too soon.  Prayers and blessings,
Traci

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))Let us know how it goes.I am praying,always.

garnett109 said...

hope he has changed

sharonna1955 said...

keep up the rules hold him to his changes...love you girls god bless...Sue

xxroxymamaxx said...

Good luck honey.  You do sound optimistic.  That's good.  Love you lots!! Shelly

springangel235 said...

I am wishing you the best with his homecoming...and know we all care about you and how things go.  Many hugs and love,
Joyce

sunnybethe said...

Geez hun, I hope he's got the message.  

xx Bethe

chat2missie said...

I sure hope his new attitude sticks this time!
Missie

imgr8phil said...

I can certainly understand the mixed feelings.  You have realized what life without him around would be like and I know you kind of like it.  Good luck for is immenent return.  Take care.

Phil

lifes2odd said...

Good luck with everything Sharon, I'll be thinking about you.
Hugs, Martha

gaboatman said...

Sharon
I hope Tom is sincere this time and puts his best foot forward.  I have high hopes for Y'all.  More than anything, I hope your dreams are answered and your wishes granted.
Sam

cuteallison1980 said...

I'm hoping and praying that he will come home and do the right thing for you and for Miss T.  You deserve that and he needs to provide that.  Have a happy tomorrow. : )

Allison

jckfrstross said...

praying it goes well for you

Deb

queeniemart said...

i pray pray pray when he gets home he is a changed man!!!
LOVE YOU

lisa

peytonswater said...

I love sleeping alone, always have! hahahahahha I'm curious to what happens when he returns (or now is actually home) I think video taping him is a good idea.
Hugs and Love
Ang

cacklinrosie101 said...

Hmmm...I'll wait and see how things are when you feel better.  I think someone is still rationazlizing their behavior but who knows.  It's way too early to tell.  Love ya, Chris