Here I sit at this computer tired as I can be. I haven't slept well in a number of days. Part of that is my fault. I sit up and enjoy some quiet time alone while the TV is on and everyone else is in bed. The other part is complements of DH....ya'll know what the D stands for these days.
I came home from work with a crazy headache and laid down. Miss T was at Nanny's and when she got home she checked on me and asked if I would like an ice pack (sweet child) and of course I said YES!
Tom had left a note about his concerns about how he feels like I'm not being supportive of him in his court quest (UGH!). And how he hates to ask me to transfer money into his account. Hey, if I didn't have to hide it from him we wouldn't have to be this way.
So I left him a note while he was out getting our dinner (Chinese). It said basically that we never do anything anymore (that either!); that I have to work and think and decide for everyone; I have to keep behind him and Tara about her homework; I have to be the banker and holder of funds due to his past indescretions; and mostly that when he drinks he becomes loud, irrational and obnoxious. He said he'd work on these things. (Same old song and dance, my friend - Aerosmith)
I had my dinner on the deck, alone, in the peace and quiet of my backyard. It was nice, no TV noise, no kid noise, no hubby music or fartz or other noise...just me and a few birds.
(There goes my motorcycle friend...he is on his way home and I always listen for him between 11:20pm and 11:45pm...if I don't hear him I get worried because this road is long and dark and full of deer).
Anyway, after dinner I took a ride to the mall. I needed some Clinique so I stopped by Belk's. Then I went into JCP just to look around. I picked up a couple of shorts for my nephew, Chase. Then to Target where I got him a couple of shirts to match. It was nice to be out alone. The day here was beautiful...not a cloud in site and about 77 degrees with a light wind. This made the night even nicer.
Usually when I'm angered or in a bad mood, I listen to an old Aerosmith CD from way back. "Draw the Line" and "Kings and Queens" usually get me out of my bad mood. But I didn't have this with me darnit. So I settled for Train. I like Jimmy Buffet too, but it wasn't that type of night.
Saturday night I am supposed to sit with my nephew (he goes to sleep at 7:30pm - he's only 10 months old) while his mom and dad are out to eat with some friends. I told Miss T that she could go with me. She loves her little cousin. I think that when he has his one year pics made in July I'm gonna take Miss T too and have their pic made together. She'll love that and so will my Mom. Hey that could be Mom's birthday gift...her b-day is just 4 days after his!!! Wooo hooo...got that nipped in the bud!
Well, the eyes have had it....and if I don't want another headache tomorrow I'd better say Adios! oops, I mean Nite Nite.